When I find it hard to love myself just as I am, I think about nature and how beautiful it is, without humans needing to improve it. It is perfect harmony and so well orchestrated that it takes our breath away. Just like the natural environment we live in, we were made in the same way, an image of perfection. Just look at a newborn baby - nobody would dispute that it is anything but cute and endearing, a miracle of creation, made out of nothing, a tiny egg and an even tinier sperm cell...
I might not be a newborn baby any more - but I still have the essence of this miracle in me. But through socialization, upbringing, schooling, jobs, and the media, I have learnt to judge myself, sometimes harshly, instead of accepting myself as I am. I have learnt to be my worst enemy. I have put myself down and I have abused myself, my mind, my body... Today I want to undo this harm, because I know that if I am unkind to myself, others will be unkind to me. If I treat myself badly, others will treat me badly too. If I feel that I am a victim, I will be powerless. It's time for me to have a healthy self-esteem. It's time for me to stop being so hard on myself. It's time for me to stop putting unnecessary pressure on myself. Doing certain things and being a certain way to please others is not everything in life - just being is enough.
Photo: "Ellis Brook Reserve" by Bella Tindale
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